I like music. I believe music can reconcile these impulses and contradictions. It is the same as if the line runs through the emotional line. Desolate quiet night, the same music as the soul singing alone. Then slowly creep into your soul. Slowly fall asleep. Do not know when, I have become accustomed to this way. Three or four in the morning, I woke up unconsciously. Mobile music is still bleak. Blunt head is heavy. Turn off the music, went back to sleep. Wake up, people are not clear.
sometimes. The music more freely mobile large mirror singing. Pale and quiet in the mirror and see yourself. But my mind was like the tide. I think life is like the tide. Section by section. Did not last. In the ebb and flow of each person's back is, unfathomable. We are all in their lives. Is not it. I knew people. Clearly how to place yourself in the position. I like being alone. Likes to be alone. Love alone. Like to have music around. Listen to music while studying. Sometimes, out also to listen. Undercurrents can bring it back strength, comfort, hope. Like Leslie Cheung. Chen Baojiang. Faye Wong. Rene Liu. Is my favorite. Because nothing to do with the imaginary and false. They are strong enough faith.
has been said, feeling like music is often very rich people. I think I like the music, but do not understand music.
lot of time, many young people see on television. For their own dreams. Experienced a loss. Tears. Warm. Moving process. Mixed audience applause and tears. Watched, my heart is moving. There were tears falling. Heart, dreams, and then to chase. This is good. There are many rings, a lot of people care, it is warm and beautiful.
but the realization of dreams. Also have a negative impact. A few days ago that the fashion guru Alexander McQueen committed suicide. The designer as treason, rape. Been called the bad boy. But his fashion design and fashion design in the visual gives the strong shock. Is indeed a downright genius. Years of chasing the dream, one day achieve. Themselves into other people's aura. The heart is empty. Similar San Mao. Leslie. Hemingway as well. Is behind the prosperity and the cold endless void.
. . . . Hear the sentence. Heart is cold.
people if there is no faith. It is easy to commit suicide. The Bible says people who commit suicide is equal to murder, this is a crime. Can not be saved. I think I will always live. Will be better and better. Sometimes, I feel the world is too complicated for human well-being. A variety of disputes, to hurt each other, and kill. Debt collection. Quarrel. Division. Hate. Against each other. Each of the other side pushed to the cliff. There is no turning back. Too much crime, life without a sense of security. Emotional unfunded. They originally could be a genuine good people, can make life wide. But their smothered. See, when the heart is to frighten frightened. But to see people and cars, neon lights flashing, was very warm. Through the bridge or the people some of the corners, there are always people with disabilities. Some have no legs. A bit short arm. Some loss of light. Some of these are missing. . . They are the group who did not expect. Really the only begging and praying. Powerless. Hopefully, God bless them. In television, they also see a lot of these people. It chills. I do not like to read. I like to watch entertainment news. Celebrity interviews. Concert. Like to see something beautiful glory. Pale escape the reality of life. I know he is not easy to compromise as the fate of the people.
one night. Family walk. Blue sky is fantastic. Black clouds. Empty desolate expanse. This trait makes repentance and humility. See the end of life are empty. The laboring people are vain. I think the Scripture says:
with hearing. thing. Can not hold anything. Reload can only decorate the Bible. There is also some books. To the spiritual hunger.
noon the day before yesterday. Is a hot summer. Days of sunshine outside. Shining sun. Nowhere to hide. I still go out umbrella. Flat black shoes to walk in the underground, hot hot. Car air-conditioning sickly. No matter what kind of day, the city's flow is always diminished. As necessities of life, no matter how the price increase, the total buy it. Into the bookstore when we come to get rid of that temperature. Zhang and columns in the San Mao hesitated before. Duras in her hand, holding the Pondering for a long time, finally made the decision to abandon the sheet. Purchased the San Mao You can also buy a 14 per of the famous Ride with the remaining money. As for Chang's and then later.
read in the previous San Mao And read her work. Plain text to some extent, to wind people feel the hardships of life. In her book, mostly tiled to tell stories, talk about the problems and pain and life. Exudes an earthy flavor and firm life. San Mao allows the reader a deep sense of the hardships of life. Was surprised that the For another form of words to create. Classic beauty with a pale, it is a very good script.
there will be blind, indecision, trauma, but will not have any utilitarian purpose, but also selfless heart, as if there only to faith. Duras's Put back in the love of the Buddha's own time.
love too hard, only to destroy his face. Sometimes in the mirror and see the pale sagging face, thinking people have changed. Beijing opera, listen to old songs, reading, walking. His heart is not ahead of growing old. Love is gone, people go. Should also learn how the next life.
slowly to find that people always want to follow the principle of time. Where all will be forgiven in time. All will be overturned start over.
nearly a month. Stay at home. With a small notebook to record their day doing. Back of the Bible. Reading. Calligraphy. Diary. Occasional lunch break, not long, half an hour more. In early March, went to the East Gate, Street, Love, The. Pulling hair, buy clothes, a pair of flat shoes black and white sports shoes. They spend a lot of time. Shopping is a waste of effort and money to do. One day down, very tired. In the Father's Day, they also went to the library. Bought two books. One evening, walking with his family. See the sky and the crowd, was very warm. Think of many things promised.
Heard on the stage now inevitably flustered, if you want to fly high on the horizon forget. Heart was touched. A lot of the time, who once stood in a position or a situation, many things will become powerless. Revealed 50-year-old Andy is still a prime atmosphere.
If you want to fly high on the horizon forget. . . .
five days, San Mao Although the plain language, but the feelings are deep and strong. A seventeen to twenty-year-old woman's story. Like a butterfly, ephemeral, constantly evolving. Transformed into a sincere dedication to women. Child, like a fly hit the red collision. Do not know how to show self-life, nor the so-called in-depth exploration. Eccentric character,UGG bailey button, destined to be different from other people. Five years old, I began to read Junior high school, has read all over the world famous on the market. Experience of repeated truancy, and thus transformed the fortunes of life hit. With several painters to study painting. Have to study abroad. Take a grain of sand to see the world, seeing ears, experience and more abundant. The teacher is to change the three-Mao Yisheng Gu Fusheng people. This book reads a lot of flavor. There are several places in the vaguely see his shadow. He thought he had a few letters addressed to type letters. In the Fusheng ------- ----- Oh do not write him! Some people, for me, one of a handful of few people, there is no language and no text. Tears have been falling. Think of love, has been a long time. But the touch is still very abundant.
my heart. Occasionally, even quiver. The tears are very low.
nearly a month. Stay at home. As for the outside world, long time no knowledge of. This morning there is a two-day walk out. In fact, the city's air is cloudy, the weather and hold back. Come a long way, can not remember anything. Also went to the bridge on the hair, the number of cars, see flow. Sixty-seven point between primary and secondary students are in school. Now, I'm nothing. Friends in a body to work the cash register's. On the Internet, you can receive a one thousand yuan at the end of more than salary. And what I'm doing it. A person, empty. Would like to buy some books. Have no money. Many students work in the summer hit. Good.
last night. A little excitement, but there are difficulties, ten fell asleep. Morning woke up, had six more. The room was bright. Brushing teeth, the remaining After delay, the drink some green bean soup. Face, put some pearl powder. Carries the package, hastily and went out. Chatting 933. Passing all the way to see the scenery, but also do not feel anything. To the school when the mentees are in the test, everything was quiet. Office space is also very quiet. Left are the class teacher. Signing his name, confirmed the exam. Down the stairs. Walked around the playground. Faye Wong's song put phone. My heart hurts. Do not know why, just at school, my heart would be in turmoil, and I miss his heart beat it will become clear. Like it very much, it feels like lovers. But here for me is can not stay in place. Will be dead.
to go back, Qu Letang friends at work place. She said go to the park tomorrow morning to go mountain climbing.也好. July 8 ------- July 17.
I was a rotten would listen to a song until the person. Not long ago, my phone memory card broken. Phone can only play a song. Continuous cycle. Update. Students laughed. Mobile put a song that people are very cute. Bought a new memory card, the first song to a few hundred. Still used to track circulation.
I have a computer at home. Placed in the living room. I sometimes think that one day to buy a new computer on his room. I can access through the night. Movies. Write reviews. 24-hour written text. Undisturbed. I want to see the movie. . This is to see the movie. But I can not openly see. Like a family sitting in front of the television to see a couple kiss scenes. Will feel uncomfortable.
day my friends invited me to the park to go hiking. Got up at five o'clock. Not eat breakfast on the go. Ru-meter road to buy two packages. Warm, very fragrant. Friends asleep. Time of departure, has seven. A long ladder, the same as the Great Wall. Longer than the Great Wall, Great Wall than complex. When walking, just put off the foot of the shoe, holding in your hand. Encountered gravel roads, and put them on. Saw the ladder, and take off. And repeatedly. The original, take a very long ladder to reach the mountain at the end, is mountain climbing. There are steps the city's Hill, very safe. In the mountains at the end, we stand on the stone bench, shouting loudly. Great pleasure. She said that we only climbed a little. My friends and I to climb the last three times, only climbed them here.
not take photographs. Yesterday, no charge to power.
came back, slightly middle-aged women and the elderly, school ballroom dancing. Friends love it. Pull my hand, watching other people jump Mo Yang. No one will teach us to quickly jump to a little stuck. The sky a few drops of rain fell. We continue down the mountain. We climb the entrance, some training facilities. Elderly and children play here. I said, living here is fine, you can always go to the mountains. She said that living here are retired.
phones are sometimes their own, like as a diary to record some important things. In life,Discount UGG boots, I have many fine book. Record book like a sentence. Diary record book. A man has his own blog, is used to record the subtle things. There are two spaces, has been busy. Those who like to text people. I write, you read. Exchange. Now, a lot of things and people have changed, QQ people are getting on the stealth. Unlike the original on-line, as happy. Including myself.
but it had filled.
6 15. Many Christian churches practice over Phuket. That many preachers. Who have heard them preach. There is a full-time preacher, after the meeting to help us ask the Holy Spirit. 've Heard friends say, there is the Holy Spirit will speak dialect. Preacher said that the Holy Spirit is the urgent and most important I believe. Have to believe that they will ask the Holy Spirit, we must urgently beg the Holy Spirit of God descending to yourself. I knelt down and prayed, and remember the words of the preacher. Prayer, I burst into tears and kept crying, quivering body. I found my voice from the depths of my heart, not the throat. Seems to be talking with the soul. Missionary, gently press my head about. Soon after, I is not their own control. Hands trembling so much that issued from the dialect of my mouth and speak soon. So I got very curious Holy Spirit. Really, thank God. That day, got the Holy Spirit. Never had the spirit. Strong and whole body. Full of joy.
This is the phone records of things.
today Baidu enter Anne found some text. Is early to write the text. Have not read some of their own. Anne's words are more skills. Years, was actually filter out so much. The text is not only a writer, another writer of the spiritual world. Her words become more and more crystal clear, light and calm, full of flavor. Favorite is her Her work will be repeated to read. Each reading will have a different understanding. In short, go back every year, go over, it will deepen the mood.
understand written and see who's not different from his.
fact, it took three days to see A French writer, Alexandre Dumas wrote the age of 24. A world famous. Strong feelings. Wrote a book review, repair modification changed. Like the inside of the word.
Today, an article called J 'Na wrote, Journal name is the English translation of a movie coming, ... ... This is not the Stone Age, and really like you, even if the experience of the tsunami, floods, even if you disappeared into the crowd, he will still find your needle in the haystack. This is a very simple truth, but many people do not want to believe. Makes sense to write this diary is that many women should sober face. Just to see people are very lonely. Disappointment in love.
just too cruel reality.
television coverage will be live every day people and things. Those breaking the story. I seldom see. See more, but also afraid, afraid of people, afraid of life. For example: He begged her to 100,101 he refused her. Son falls, the parents told her grandmother. Extra-marital affairs, the couple against each other. Young people taking drugs, to go bankrupt. An artist committed suicide. . . Family disputes. Emotional broken. Personal conflicts. These events saw people cold. Of life and the people down, and even despair. .
life and doing things others are learning in China.
summer rain,UGG boots clearance, a bit chaotic. The rain stopped for a while, the sun came out again. After a while, days and turns black. Repeatedly, and summer temper, a bit erratic. In this day, I read the San Mao Read her now, Sometimes, watching sheets of the
like sheets of text. On a bit like a sheet.
phone has been shut down. Zanshi regardless of it. Life begins with a section of stagnation. A lot of things, I do not go ignored. Sometimes there are large gaps in the brain, emotions sometimes exaggerated. Music gradually reduced. Like to hit the dead end point. A person in the room. Stay for a day. Sometimes also the curtains closed during the day, turn on the light. Read, take notes, trance, reading the Bible, to sleep. Only when eating out. Like to write text, but its very hard to see, the notebook is often only a few lines of the diary, has been discouraged. You can also write, Caprice can not be written. Also daily in writing characters, changing the normal lot. However, writing a letter or use the computer. Tu altered to change, more convenient. Internet access is not often. The problem is time.
as long as no Internet access, can forget a lot of things. Probably no one will find me. A person, quiet. Just did not think anyone will think of me in this weather. Hall's phone, they called me out, saying it was me. It turned out that my little sister. Free walk out together, said.也好. Out, the sun, shining. Forget to carry an umbrella. This habit should be never. Halfway, the day it began to rain as big as beans. Forced to run, so short breath. Went to her house, the rain stopped. Get real people. We go out, the sun is shining. Still did not carry an umbrella.
we ride to Long Park. Walk in a circle. Then ride back.
a bit boring.
we all feel the chest,cheap UGG boots, nausea, headache. She said just go in a circle, I am quite out of breath. She is also a lack of movement of people. City of the human body is not very good. She said that on the night shift for six days, they lost couple of pounds. Finally a couple of pounds of fat, and back. She looked at 163, only 80 kilos of weight. A bit distressed. She, mature, dignified temperament, bones have a wild side, as if the mountain plants, are very wide sheets. Way of doing things, like 90 people. Always felt, in her experience of this age, this should not be hard to do. Is not within her age. But this is her life. Load too heavy. Remember the winter of a year, we went to the site along with other vehicles. At that time she wore black clothes and green jeans, wearing a pair of sandals. Very casual nature. She has been looking away thoughtfully, eyes passing a trace of sadness and sorrow. At that time, I do not want to say anything. Just hard to forget that day. She is rarely wear sandals. Since junior high school graduation, is wearing high heels. The only one that day, dressed conform her age. I like that look like her.
that she should look like. She is not that simple
shy girl. In fact, this very well. As long as the feel good, like. We must be sincere and kindhearted woman. No matter how the years change.
that heart. Is good.
ride home tomorrow. Pingtan, long time no home. Would like to wish the place. Walked the streets, watched the scenery, people who know and experience things done before.
remember.
order some books to take home to see. I think many years
Intermediate coach did not do, lying in bed, drink plenty of water, all the way to see the scenery outside the glass, from day to night. Must be beautiful.
had a lot of things. Like this, like the train bound for Pingtan will reach the station.
the next will begin.
life is a paragraph. Carried out. Continue. Never renewed.
7 月 18 号
Today is a very ordinary day.
TV Received 81st Academy Awards, Best Foreign Language Film Award and other awards.
interval of 50 years, the Japanese Foreign Language Film Award.
Japan when the cherry blossoms bloom, beautiful. People will come to praise life. But the cherry Life is short. When it fades, people also praise the pathos of life. This is the Japanese concept of life. Very real calm.
The Chinese people are often caught in the grief of death.
film that death is a door. Does not mean the end of life, but through its next stage.
just a door.
This is Cai Yongkang words. Little thoughts and feelings. Remembered.
Fuji was beautiful too. Especially after it snows in Japan, beautiful. In Linger in a variety of cuisine. Shuttling back and forth a lot of people are not tell you and me.
Eiffel Tower in France.
their appointments.
are there.
7 月 19--------8 19.
alone.
bought the That day, my mother took me to eat KFC. Take the time, also fell on a bag of stuff there. Go back, had disappeared. When I asked the waitress when inarticulate Chu. People do not know what I'm saying. The person next to probably understand my expression. I mean, in turn expressed to the waiter again. Said no but asked the cleaning staff. He said, wait. Head out of the bag from the room talking to and asked me what's inside. I said, some bread, chewing gum, fruit. Things count back. More than eleven, but also of the home. Many people waiting for the bus, the site empty. We are afraid of no car to go home. Have pulled out of position far out of the platform. Small car, many people, getting late. We had to take a taxi home. 20 dollars, a little expensive. Home, when suddenly it began to rain big. Therefore, it is worth.
Sometimes, I was so confused, dull.
do Pingtan night at seven o'clock and more cars to go home. Their place is not very good. Small and dark glass. Therefore, the scenery did not look too long. Under the dim light that night train, or think of something, but the dust of the ground already.
actually did not take long, but things like the long, long time.
simple taste. The crowd noise. Traffic flow is also much too crowded. Face. Sound. Streets. Are familiar. I know I'm back.
heart is sad.
occasionally pop out of the sky will be the sound of fireworks. Watch the fireworks when the heart is lonely. Standing in his room, truly out of the window to see the fireworks. Valen Hsu mind was thinking of When a person to see a night of fireworks. And then go home empty-hand. Turned out the light, shut the door. Empty, his heart, did not know that you can tell who will listen. Or a man sad. At daybreak, will be the last.
body I do not naive people, speaking clumsy, but also ways of the world who do not understand. So I do not like occasions. Afraid to make mistakes. Scared to sinners. Or will commit.
just come back, to drink, to visit, so a bit busy. Usually not a planned time to do something. Something always seems missing. But the heart has been very satisfied. Am grateful to the teacher's concern. The road is very grateful to those who came with me. Thank own beliefs. My Father, My Lord.
drinking alcohol, ran cousin house. I miss them. To stay overnight at the flat, very happy. Heart seemed to go back. That would be the child's heart. Ling or so kids heart. But more than ever nagging. But to get along with her very relaxed and happy. Time together with them, there is not want to leave the idea. Oh, really happy. Warm.
but I know. We do not belong to happiness. We always want to grow. Grow up alone.
only to face loneliness, only to grow. One out, always feel a lot of things.
slowly get used to. A person in the room. Read. Take notes. Write feelings. Calligraphy. Read the Bible. That day. Quickly to another year. Is probably their lives. Sometimes, the thought of the future. Will Palao, afraid of loneliness. Oh, these are unrealistic. The Bible is written in Ecclesiastes vanity. Vanity baffled. It is said, the world is our aliens, true home in heaven. So, like myself empty. Is so hollow.
many cases, in thought, he would be the way to somewhere. What have changed lives for the better. In fact, no longer important. Know where to go, want to do. But in any case, in good faith to do an independent woman.
be a good believer. Vigilant themselves. Do yourself. Disappointing not to life.
calm
a lot of things. In time to say farewell, has been forgotten. But I remember Annie said, forgetting is a gift.
Yes, forgetting is a gift.
days in Fujian, a full month. After a period of calm days, all Danru wind. A lot of things, forced to. Really, are empty and white. Occasionally think of something light. Like the summer wind.
hot air like here, bored. Occasionally, in the seat and enjoy the cool wind. The sun shone through the window glass sofa. Listen to old songs, reading books. Enjoy the window of heaven and earth, spicy sun hit the leaves, there are simple taste. Ears of the fans are whirring sound. Occasionally, a few flies will come and strike up a conversation.
home insulation is not good. Closed doors or even from another room or living room, came fresh dialogue. At first, may not feel comfortable. Slowly get used to. Day reading, and very fulfilling. In this way, the day done, is also recorded.
Pingtan the street, very crowded. Way down the left margin are the fish. Big fish smell. Therefore, the buildings will fly Pingtan many flies. Such a hit, because it is near the sea. Pingtan resort, there are a lot of people a day. Young and old, crowded. Sometimes, I go. Just to see the sea, breathe. Swim a lot. Riding. Driving. A variety of games. Carousel. Carp diving. . . . Are children's games. Night on the beach eating ice, barbecue. There are noisy electronic music. There are some stars of the sky. Particularly small to see the moon. Great flavor.
that night, my aunt's cousin, the cousin of the children and me to the resort to play. Special naughty baby, all the way to play. He likes a muddy pond, with his legs into the muddy water. Like the soil, which is the characteristics of a child. All the way, step to step foot in the earth with a bang. Sticky mud thrown at us. Walked, he returned to. With a lot of good things, and only then pull him back. Finally, it went to the beach. Saw the water, full of joy. Pants have been wet. Like moths to a flame or forward. Take a great effort, get back to him. A few steps, he heard the car roaring sound, horrifying, and dignitaries hugged him. Walk the beach, is a busy street. Baby will down. Love the game, but did not dare to play. Watching Carousel, focusing particularly lovely eyes. Was seen as remote control cars, even dare to play. Pocket all the way to the car.
Sometimes, the aunt. Play with the baby. Like children. Fed to him. Play together. Slowly to have feelings for him.
I think the days in the home. Like reading. Like playing with the baby. Flat light.
like middle-aged retired
Time Goes
people together, and gradually to away from you. Maybe because marriage and children, perhaps because of fatigue overburdened, perhaps because the ideal of becoming different, perhaps because the enemies. But you still want to go alone, because you know, has not reached your destination, you have bigger dreams.
but I think, even so, I do not regret it. No matter how the future of our situation, where we were and whether still engaged in the cause of such a weaving dreams, whether good or the vicissitudes of white hair is still young, and I will never forget this journey with you. because in life and you can walk the same journey together, read the same paragraph landscape, really great.
I'm sure we will go to a better future.
more long time coming, and you want to continue to work side by side. This is the blog GJM. Read many times over.
very touching.
decided to copy down.
fragment.
in Pingtan. Through the flat light of life. No deep story. Some fragments of some of the profound.
remember. Parting moment. Grandma was cloudy eyes, I see it is clearly sad. Eighties, she staggered look. Tenacious chase went out to my farewell. I Yaozhao Shou said, Grandma, go in, do not send out. Gone quickly. She ran very fast, in the far side of the road watching me. This is the first time I saw her go so soon. Heart sad to Handle, indicating her into it.
ten years ago, I'm going to read the summer in Shenzhen. She is also leaning like a tree outside the room side, looked like dismay.
do not know what to do when such a meeting. Childhood, she gave me a happy time. I give her more comfort, but no give.
grandmother, I could not.
I miss you.
remember. Baby, hard to reach. Never let me hold. But slowly, he is very dependent on me. I have left, he actually cried all afternoon. Wake up, or cry. I can not find a room.
sad.
remember. And cousin shopping. Hamburgers. Shopping, bought a Chinese-style shirt. Flowers small flowers into small pieces. It was a child see the roadside wildflowers. Worn on the body, there is the taste of autumn. Engaging and simple. Flowers, humane.
like.
this dress, the cousin to be a present for me. But I insisted on their own pay. No thanks.
remember. VILLAGE mirror me back to see Grandma. My brother and I watch the sea. All the way to the beach, take a lot of photos. Old little room. Trees. Sand. Sea. Stones. Lost beach shoe. Beach block. Wreck. A wood on the hole. Roadside peanuts. Road. Lived in their own house. And in the sea to us. Record this moment. Years of silence.
I know. I was a child here.
together through the day. There is no substitute. It is ours. Suddenly remembered Guo said in a blog. . . . Health saddest thing is that once you find along the way, the people with you, gradually to leave you gone. Perhaps it is because marriage and children, perhaps because of fatigue overburdened, perhaps because the ideal of becoming different, perhaps because the enemies. But you still have to continue to go alone, because you know, have not reached your destination, you have bigger dreams. During this journey with you. Because in life can be with you through the same journey, seen as a landscape, just wonderful. . . .
doing long-distance truck in Guangdong, think of these. Heart like a wet paper extravagant. Some regret. Sorry not to accompany her grandmother, heard the words of Grandma, and Grandma can not regret camera. But I will remember you.
I'll be fine.
toward a better tomorrow.
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